My trip to Guatemala

Precious Memories

I awake and search for him.
But my hands come up empty.
My mind steps out from the darkness and i remember that he is no longer with me.
And the pain and sadness comes to me again.
But with precious memories;
The first time I saw his face.
The first time I heard his voice.
The first call, the first text.
The first hug.
The day i held his hand.
Riding on the bus next to him, the blinding Guatemalan sun on our faces.
Walking around a city full of magic.
Resting my head on his shoulder.
Our silly pictures, every night on the phone.
Your goodbye and wondering when ill ever see your face again.
I miss you Pao. ILY!

Him; my Pao

His presence lingers all around me, around every inch of my life and i want him, i need him more than air. He is my light my only exit from this black hole. I need his voice i need his embrace to keep on living without him i will keep on falling lower and lower, i will lose my way, i need him to keep moving foward; just him always.

Far Far Away

I have no heart because i left it far away,
Along with all my smiles
And all my hapiness
I left everything behind
And i'm okay
I know that I am not alone,
for he is always here with me.
His laughter and all the great memories have stayed with me.
He is with me even if he is millions of miles away.
Im in his thoughts and he's in mine it's simple.
And because of that, i'm okay.

from dark to light and back again.

All of a sudden there is a blazing luminous side to this dark path im on. I see him and he looks back at me, He is my light. i am so tired of the haunting darkness and numbness of my lonely life, I am tired of being alone so i gather all my remaining strength and run for to him but i cant seem to reach him. But he waits, he waits for me to find my way to him. He is the only person that can take me out of this misery he is the only one that can make me whole again.

The Surface

Unconsciousness did not fully take over me tonight. My head stayed at the surface of the darkened pool, trying to obtain enough oxygen to keep my pulse going. I could not drown or ignore the excruciating pain. My head supplied my mind with every mistake and every deception through out my life and all my destroyed dreams and i couldn't take it. ''Unconsciousness take me for there is no worser pain than this.''

social and political issues

Gabriela Perez
Health Care Factor in the United States.
In my opinion one of the biggest factors in the United States and the Government is The Health Care reform. The health care reform means that everybody has a right to have free health care. Many people would be in agreement that this is very beneficial and would help everybody in America have health care. The debate over healthcare reform in the United States centers on questions of a right to health care, access, fairness, sustainability, and quality purchased by the high sums. The private health care system in the United States is the most expensive in the world, with health care costing more per person than in any other nation, and a greater portion of gross domestic product is spent on it than in any other place.
The United States is the only wealthy, industrialized nation that does not have a universal health care system. There are at least 47 million uninsured people, and nine million reside in households whose income totals greater than $75,000. In addition many or most of those with insurance are not sufficiently insured, with high-deductible policies, policies that do have limits on what they will pay for or policies that cost a significant percentage of their income. A fundamental problem in evaluating reform proposals is the difficulty of estimating their cost and potential impact. In an effort to cut drug costs and potential drug-related toxicities, medical doctors have been instructed by the FDA only to prescribe those medications which are "absolutely indicated" in the management of patient's illnesses. The empirical data and theory underlying cost estimates in this area are limited and subject to debate, increasing the variation between estimates and limiting their accuracy.
Another reform hat does not benefit insurance companies or the private health care industry is the power of insurance company and health care industry lobbyists in the United States.

life

i have learned to see life in a different perspective, i see everything so much differently than most people my age. Kids my age just think of having a boyfriend and making out. i think about why the sky here is always gray and why the pavement is always so wet in the mornings, i think about the foggy forests and the wind. i wonder what made me change so much. i want to jump of the sorrounding fence i want to discover i want to have fun but a different kind of fun than what normal kids think. i always wonder when i see twilight across the dark sky and what another day will bring

Numb

Time passes as a blur and I go along with it; numb and with no direction As the night falls the numbness begins to fade and the pain becomes to creep upon me and its unbearable; there is a huge hole in my chest and its full of nothing but emptiness. The night passes and my artificial light comes once again with the numbness i apperciate, i feel gratitude for it and the day passes in a blur.

***thanks to The Extraordinarii for inspiring this one.

January 11,2010. TIME

Time pases, even for the lonely and the hurt. sometimes I would like time to go by even faster though, to avoid time to think about my life. And in the direction im heading. I am completely lost, with nothing. I am sorrounded by the emptiness. i have lost it all and yet here i am, living and trying to breath even though every inhale hurts so excruiciatingly. And time passes, it passes even for me.

one of my FIRST writings.

Life always has it's ups and downs, and its good and bad moments. What i mean is good things come and then they go. And you just have to except that because life isnt fair. sometimes love seems like a good thing but what about the excruciating pain that comes in the end??? How do you endure that?

Assignment For My English class.

...I AM GABRIELLA…

I am fate.
I am luminous.
I’m trying to put my life in order.
I am optimistic; looking at the world in a different way.
I believe in Thinking before you act, but never regretting what you did.
I believe God is love.
I believe that true love will come when it’s time.
I believe that life is hard so get a helmet.
And that if nothing goes right, turn left.
Life keeps going.
I still need to learn so much more.
I have a numerous things to accomplish.
I have to graduate.
I have to live life.
I need to get a job.
I need to get so many things out of life.
I need to succeed.
I need my family
I need to dream, and dream big.

this was an assignment for my english class but i wanted to share it.! love gby

fight<3

I’ve mad it to my senior year and that is a big accomplishment, graduating even bigger. All the things I have gone through have given me the perseverance to fight and be strong. And I am independent I don’t need anybody to tell me that I am. I am strong and I don’t need anybody to show it to. I fight all alone and it does not bother me. I am quiet, I am grown up, or at least getting there.